think and write

I couldn't wait to start writing again. So many things I wanted to chew and digest. Then work got busy. Then it took a turn for the worse. Other decisions had to be made. I'm overwhelmed. And wish I had more time to think and write.

screw up more often

As if my project at work wasn't enough to drive one to drink. I've been told that my job is moving. This is not unexpected. I got that vibe 3 months ago. What's insulting is that they only gave me 2.5 weeks notice. And I'm coordinating the move. That's what I've been working on for 3 months.

Did they just notice me? Is this a reward? "Hey, you did a brillant job, why don't you come with us?" If I had known I would have screwed up more often.

quit first

I'm working on this project. At work. It's large. It might kill me. I may quit first.

20/20

Things I would do differently:

Get on the day care waitlist sooner
Hire a doula
Let my husband buy formula so I could get a break from feedings
See the lactation consultant sooner
Write that letter to the day care owner and demand an apology

39

Why do people hate to tell their age? Especially women. It has never bothered me.

I did some fun things when I was younger. I also did a lot of stupid things. Things that I learned from. And I don't want to go back to being young and stupid.

Happy birthday to me!